cos you always pay for it...

3 years 10 months.
Thats 1096 (taking a leap year into account) plus 336 (the ten months).
So thats 1432 days left of being a teenager.
How hideous...
or is it good?
I guess it doesn't make any difference, I can't make it go any faster.
Im so bored

a sin you swallow for the rest of your life

I can't decide if I want to be Peter Pan.
I don't want to get old, I really don't.
But also, I'm gonna have a massive party when I turn 20, just to say
'YES! I SURVIVED BEING A TEENAGER! HALLELUJAH ITS OVER!!!!'

But I'm not sure how that night would turn out, if I'd be happy or sad to be out of this silly little state of being, this muddled-up-finding-our-feet-in-the-big-scary-world-and-the-big-scary-truth-of-who-we-really-are. I really can't decide...

Peter Pan had it easy, he didn't have a choice and he got to stay as a boy, not a teen.

bastard

<3gliTter

i dreamed i was missing...

I've been thinking, I don't know how we tolerate each other, teenagers in general.
We are all so self absorbed, really.

We are surrounded by each others pain all the time and yet its 'me me me' all the time.

I'm not pinning any blame here, or maybe I am, just equally on myself, so please don't think I'm a hypocrite.I'm just as self absorbed as everyone else, I know that.

Maybe we are all just ignoring each other, except for those rare moments when you actually connect with someone else. So often we just plug in the headphones and either pretend to listen to each other, or don't even pretend...

Or we listen, but our thoughts aren't really on the topic properly...

Or maybe I'm the only one and I'm just imagining that everyone else does it to make myself feel a little better...

hmmm

<3gliTter