I can't get no...

Alternative title : dear church,

We sing 'God be the Solution', and about healing broken hearts, breaking chains and though I believe that a faith community has the power and potential to do that, and I certainly believe it of God, these days I believe it less and less of the church. As the days roll by, I do my best, but I cannot overrun this restless dissatisfaction.

If it wasn't for the fact that I am determined to make a change, I think I would just leave. If it weren't for the the people, I would just leave.

Can the church ever do what we promise to? can religion ever actually work?



am I doomed to spend my entire life pouring myself into something I don't entirely believe in? Trying desperately to make it work?





will it ever?

Just a few more weary days and then I'll fly away

I shouldn't have watched Jessica Watson coming home. All I want to do now is go on an adventure, jump on a plane, or learn how to sail, or just drive away. I want to throw a few things in a bag, grab a copious amount of energy drinks and a few friends on the way and just go.

I CERTAINLY do not want to do my english. at all. not even a little bit. or my classics or drama or modern, and trust me, theres bloody well enough of it that I should be able to choose the least repulsive one...


But no, not anymore.
I don't want to by a formal dress, I don't really want that cup of tea, I don't want to listen to or play music, I don't wanna paint, I don't wanna take artsy photos, I don't want a bubble bath, I don't want a hug, I don't want an A+, I don't want to go to youth group or go to church or even go out.





All I want is adventure.

All I want is escape