Unending love, amazing grace

If God wasn't the creator of the universe and everything, all-knowing and whatnot, I am certain I would confuse him very much.

Because although he has taken the punishment for every single wrong thing I have ever done, am doing and ever will do, I insist on feeling guilty and punishing myself anyway.

He has set me free, removed my chains.

And I insist upon putting them back on again. Wearing my mistakes like some sort of sick masochistic jewelry.

If God wasn't so smart, I'm sure he'd be confused.

I mean, my troubles aren't even pretty!
They aren't even sparkly or beautiful in that Romeo-and-Juliet way that sometimes happens.
I procrastinate, I get tired, I get over-emotional.
The end.



sowhydoikeepdoingthis?

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words are shit.

words come out bad and say stupid things that i didnt mean that way.

and maybe you needed to scream at someone, i dont blame you in the slightest.

can i try again?

can i have another shot at what i MEANT to say?

i said about it breaking my heart, knowing how you feel. Blah blah blah, bullshitbullshitbullshit.


I shall try again, and if it comes out wrongly again, scream away.

You're one of my dearest friends, how could I not let you scream at me and keep trying to say it better? say it truer

Lets try again.

I hate to see you hurt. I know full well that the achy breaky bits in me are only the teensiest eensiest echo of yours. I shudder to even imagine the tiny bit of it I could maybe comprehend.

I have felt since we became friends that you and I are soul sisters. I know you are hiding so much of what goes in your beautiful little heart and mind but the miniscule bits I get to see...

It's sympathetic agony to even feel that microscopic echo.

And DON'T apologise, DON'T be sorry.

That is entirely, completely, utterly my job. ok?

And I know you love me, I love you too.

Chineserussianlylas remember?

I love you so much, that reading that only hurt because I realised how much I'd hurt you.

I didn't mean it the way it came out.

And the 'beautiful' bit. I can't even correct that, that's one for the incinerator.

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