I'd rather feel the pain all too familiar

Long days are gay.

I don't think I shall go into too much detail, because I'm sick of listening to myself whinge.

bet you kids are glad to hear that :P

basically, I'm sick of spending life dreading school, dreading work, dreading this, that or the other.

I'm over being over stuff.

I want my enjoyment back...

I want to snap out of it, but at the same time I don't want to.

Cos if I do, then I have to face the wave of stress and things undone that is just waiting for me to properly admit it's there...

oh dear...