The falling leaves drift by my window

Before I say what I'm going to say, I need to make something COMPLETELY clear.
Or at least I hope it will be clear.

To the person this is directed at (don't worry, you'll know)
I'm not angry, bitter or jealous.
I don't think that you shouldn't be able to rely on him.
I don't think that I should come before him.
yeah, not angry, not attacking you.
I really, really hope you understand that.

But sometimes, when I read your answers to the questions on formspring of who is your best friend and answer that it's him...
Argh... I mean, I'm not mad, I know you care about me and at the risk of sounding arrogant, I know that you love me, just as I love you.

But I can't help but wonder what it'll be like when you guys get married. I have a feeling that I'll probably be single for a while and I'm wondering what life is gonna be like, when I'm 'the single one'. When you guys need husbandandwife time, you know, when you're raising a family and whatnot.

I hope it doesn't sound self centred, I don't mean it in a whiney 'don't forget to pay attention to me' way. And I don't intend this to be a reflection on you as individuals, or as a couple, at all.
Just... just on the way the world works, social dynamics and such, in general terms.

It's similar to the ponderings I know others have been having about life post-school, how will our friendships look in the context of a different time, a different stage of life and whatnot.

I think it will be interesting, and hopefully not painful.

Letters For You all Pt2

Dear You,

I love you!

I love the way you play piano, it is very musical and delicate and awesomely heartfelty.

which is good, because your heart is very beautiful, so the music is too.

You don't play tacky, which is a change from everyone else.

But you don't do really anything tacky.

You are very sweet, like the juice that turns you into somebody so extroverted and deliciously silly that you make my head hurt in the nicestest way possible.

And you are good to talk to, and good to listen to also.

I forget how long I've known  you, it seems like an incredibly long time to me.

Which is a good thing.

<3glitter

letters for you all

Letters for people! Short ones, but yes. Somewhat similar to that ten things email, but hopefully all nice and no nasty. I think I shall start them all with I love you. But I want to make it clear that they aren't 'I love you because' they are 'I love you and'. make sense?

Dear You,

I love you! You are awesome.

I think a lot of the time you don't think you're awesome, and even on the days that you are tired or grumpy (and its fair for you to be grumpy, i dont mind) and not up to your usual standard of awesome, you are still awesome for me. You know exactly the right listening noises to make when I'm ranting and I love your laugh, so very much.
I love when we are laughing together, because when we do, it doesnt matter that I've only known you since transition day, it feels like we've been friends forever. And that's cheesy, really cheesy, but really true.

We wrote songs together, we wrote assignments together and now we blog.

We've grown up, a bit lol.

You are my toto, so is she, but you are.

I hope thats not pressureful...

Regardless, you are the first friend i made on transition day and I'm quite sure we'll be sitting on a porch when we're 80, laughing about something that doesn't quite make sense.

I love you girl, you amaze me.

2 b cont

<3glitter

can you remember the taste of strawberries?

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned it's back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart

I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relieve and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head

When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face they day

Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call

Come on, Mr. Frodo. I can't carry it for you... but I can carry you!


I nearly cried when he said that...

<3glitter

samwise gamgee you're my hero

quietly and gracefully

There is something very nice about being a mime.
It makes me feel different, this non-speakage and white face business.
I feel more relaxed actually, free to be more over-dramatic and...I dunno how to say what i mean.
It makes you think about communication, listening and reading body language.
Some people (luvya kel) are mad good at reading our mimeish body language and others (-cough- tim -cough-) are bad at it.
Makes you wonder how much people are really listening to you when you do speak...
Makes me wonder how much I actually listen to people.

<3I love that you always understand me, you're golden girl, can't wait to be freaky clone twins.
I wonder how long our hair and face paint will last on saturday? lol probably not long.

I just wanted to tell you, even though I can't speak, that you are flipping amazing and awesome and lovely and cute and sweet and kind and a MASSIVELY FANTASTIC friend.

Oh, and your an island of reality in an ocean of diaorrhea, i love you buddy.

<3gliTter

mushrooms and trakkies

its a little bit of weird right now.
Just, I dunno. I guess I've been single for ages.
And for a while we all were, all three of us.
And now its just me.
Again.

I'm not whinging, I don't even mind (at the moment at least :P)
It's just a tad weird, it makes me feel like I'm at a very different point of my life to you guys, in a way.
Not a big way. Maybe just that God has got important stuff to teach me and doesn't want me to be distracted. Which I would be. Thoroughly.

I dunno, its just odd.
<3gliTter