Sunday, November 16, 2008

a second letter...

i owe you an apology.

im sorry that i have tried to pin this stuff on you.
As much as I think I would like to be able to blame you, I can't.
Im sorry that I let your little jokes get under my skin, I know you don't want to hurt me.
I'm sorry that I...that I based my security on your opinion of me.
That was dumb.
I should explain a little bit more.
I have this bad habit of getting my security from other people, particularly guys. Boyfriend guys... And even though I don't feel that way about you anymore and its been quite some time, I guess that little bit of it carried over to you as my friend, I shouldnt have let it. I shouldnt have let it exist at all.

I said that I needed to learn to stand on my own feet.
Maybe for a while i did know how, but i forgot...

im sorry that ive been so touchy, it must have been annoying lol.

I want you to know that as of now, I am starting to try and undo it...To stand up on my own again...well, stand up with god.

No hard feelings, I'm sorry that i got so upset at you, even though to a much lesser degree it was deserved. I think i had a right to be a bit annoyed, but not shattered like I ended up.

See you at school...
<3glitTer

3 comments:

  1. if you are louise, is this to harry? >.<

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  2. see if you can work out the order in which i commented your posts lolz...
    and who am i?
    WHO AM I????
    you should know >.<
    i just went through shazz's blogs and found the one where you commented, you had a picture of yourself for it and it keeps whatever you had, it doesn't change everytime... which is annoying when my name was my name on here..
    eh
    ;D

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  3. Yup, suspicions confirmed. It was directed at Harry.
    I are smart kid.
    Take it easy, kay?
    Try not to worry so much. It just does your head in all the more.

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