Continuation and expansion of previous blog.
If God asks me to be a spinster.
I thought of an even worse possibility.
What if I have a steady christian boyfriend who loves me and who i love.
and god still asks me to be a spinster.
I think that one is about eighty thousand times less likely, but still.
I realised something, sitting here enjoying how contented i am as i lie on my bed, blogging, eating sushi, drinking chai and listening to amber rubarth while it rains and blows a gale outside, that there is a gap in my contentment.
I am very nearly completely incapable of contentment without other human company.
I am never fully present in my life.
I'm always thinking about something else.
Honestly, even if I had a guy, I would imagine him into something more perfect than he was.
How scary is that...
and if God asks us all to be spinsters, we are SO living together.
if its just me, you still get to be my sanity :P
The Shade In The Night
4 weeks ago