Monday, February 2, 2009


words are shit.

words come out bad and say stupid things that i didnt mean that way.

and maybe you needed to scream at someone, i dont blame you in the slightest.

can i try again?

can i have another shot at what i MEANT to say?

i said about it breaking my heart, knowing how you feel. Blah blah blah, bullshitbullshitbullshit.

I shall try again, and if it comes out wrongly again, scream away.

You're one of my dearest friends, how could I not let you scream at me and keep trying to say it better? say it truer

Lets try again.

I hate to see you hurt. I know full well that the achy breaky bits in me are only the teensiest eensiest echo of yours. I shudder to even imagine the tiny bit of it I could maybe comprehend.

I have felt since we became friends that you and I are soul sisters. I know you are hiding so much of what goes in your beautiful little heart and mind but the miniscule bits I get to see...

It's sympathetic agony to even feel that microscopic echo.

And DON'T apologise, DON'T be sorry.

That is entirely, completely, utterly my job. ok?

And I know you love me, I love you too.

Chineserussianlylas remember?

I love you so much, that reading that only hurt because I realised how much I'd hurt you.

I didn't mean it the way it came out.

And the 'beautiful' bit. I can't even correct that, that's one for the incinerator.



  1. heaps better :P you still made me cry :P

    ~sigh~ even when hurting people has become my life i cant do it right :P

    love you muchly... and im sorry im being so bitchy.


    i love you dude. and im standing up for you. i may possible cyber stalk this 'knower of all' and beat the living fuck out of them.