Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Sometimes I feel like I'm alone

I won't lie, I wanted you to ask how I was today, so that I could say bad.
Although I said to him 'You're lucky I'm ok with all of this, or that comment would really have hurt me', I realised soon after that I had lied, and it just straight out hurt my feelings. That sounds sort of half-assed and lame, but heart-broken is too much, so oh well.

You went to punch me in the arm and said 'hang on if your ovaries don't work, are you still a woman? does that mean I can hit you?'

Needless to say, I was shocked. For those who don't know, I have polycystic ovaries syndrome, its pretty common, i have it pretty easy and i'm generally ok with it, go google it if you want.

Although I know that of course I am still a woman, and the fact that I will probably have to use IVF to have my own children doesn't jeapordise my feminity, it still hurt. And although I know full well the answer to the question is ' how dare you say that to me, of course I am still a woman and i will punch you back harder anyway', I have to admit, the question still stings.

And yeah, I wanted you to notice that I wasn't smiling, but I guess I am too good at faking my way through, chances are I told you I was OK without even noticing I did it. Besides, right now you are a whole different kettle of distant fish...


4 comments:

  1. Honey! No matter what, you gotta stand up for yourself, no more faking it, let him have the full force of your feelings, beat him up.

    Can I ask how you are, lovely? Please be better than ohk, also we should catch up soon, I don't like being bored at home not spending time with you (and everyone else)

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  2. I actually have that syndrome as well, though mine's only a mild case and the doctor says it should get better soon.....I didn't know that about you though...:(

    <3 -hugs-

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  3. Haha, I will beat him up next time, I promise. Besides, I have it on good authority that he feels really bad about it.

    And yeah, I'm good. yes, we should! we should get coffee or something, or i should organise a night to watch AVPS... /strokes metaphorical beard


    wow, i didn't know that! its funny how easily I forget to tell people this things, it just becomes part of life, you know?

    love you both <3 <3 <3

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  4. I remember you telling me once... doesn't change anything much about you in my eyes, you're still a woman and an awesome friend. ♥

    I like this idea of AVPS and coffee.

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